She's Crafty

I want to be an interior decorator.

But I also sometimes like the job that I have. I enjoy being a professional. I enjoy wearing slightly business like clothing to work. I enjoy helping people with their financial problems.

I also enjoy being a mother. I have a wonderful son and spending time with him makes me happy.

A previous place of employment left me scarred and lacking in self confidence. Sometimes I think that a life with less risks is what I want. No pressure, no deadlines, no performance reviews. And then there are times when I remember the moments that I enjoyed: the rewards of my hard work. There were lessons garnered and friends gathered that I wouldn't give up for the world.

There is such a fine line between working and living. Modern life has such rewards for professional accomplishment. I seem to hold professional achievements in high regard.

I love being a mom. I love expressing creativity. I love being respected for my achievements. And then every now and then I misplace my onfidence and my self esteem drops a million pegs and all I want is to be happy with myself.

Matt is watching Buffy. GIles is singing, "I'lll try not to bleed on your couch I've just had it steeamed cleaned." Really....